“What is up with you? “He knows that I mean us, and tells me that he would like to be “just friends” and starts giving a very good reason. At this point I put my hands over my ears and start saying “la la la la la la la la”
very loudly until he stops and then I demand that he kiss me.
It was very sweet of him to agree.
He was fun, affectionate and an excellent kisser. I liked the immediacy the onetime-ness of it.
He satisfied my curiosity and made me promise not to apologize.
It was exactly what I needed.

I hope it did not disturb him too much.

I went to sleep with a warm sweet feeling, oddly jubilant,
thinking how much I like him and that I am so happy that we are going to be friends.