find a soft place on your body and rub me with it oh this I won't soon forget you are the one that will remain you are the one that will remain -bill smog Read more →

Last May , and I went to a benefit for Bust magaizine http://www.bust.com/. The Velvet Hammer performed and I was utterly enthralled. If I had seen these women at age 14 it would have changed my life. I would have been able to rock out with my cock out so much earlier. I would have been Scarlet Fever when I… Read more →

I am so happy, despite my utter failure to achieve any of my summer time goals, Obtaining work, a suitable love, getting back in shape after sitting for so long, and reading all the books and seeing all the movies that I need to. NONE OF IT IS HAPPENING ON SCHEDULE I am still so fucking happy, my skin is… Read more →

“What is up with you? “He knows that I mean us, and tells me that he would like to be “just friends” and starts giving a very good reason. At this point I put my hands over my ears and start saying “la la la la la la la la” very loudly until he stops and then I demand that… Read more →

Yes, It is true. Read more →

I am sick and bachelor #3 brings me juice and fish and a movie. It makes me feel better. What a sweetie he is. Read more →

I am a sick kitty today. Tired and sore throat. Grrrrrrr Read more →

He tells me he is an editor too. I think he might enjoy a fireside chat with editor Ralph Winters http://us.imdb.com/Name?Winters,+Ralph+E.. During his talk I can see that my date is having a hard time not commenting. I am a bit uncomfortable because I am sitting with my contemporaries and feeling that I should be respectful. As we are leaving… Read more →

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Today we had the talk. Although we kissed in the back of the taxi, I just want to be friends. He is cool with it. I am relieved. We spent the day together and had a lovely time outside. Read more →

When I was about 14 my mother took me to Hamburger Mary's in Portland Oregon. I felt lucky that my mother was so cool that she would take me to this funky downtown restaurant. She fit right in and I remember thinking how hip she was, more hip then I Then, a very fine maybe 18 year old boy came… Read more →

I knew it was bad when I saw all the guns around, by then I was used to the drugs. They were coming in and we wanted out. We hurried to one of the back rooms, I locked the door but I knew it would not hold. He had grabbed a gun that neither of us knew how to use.… Read more →

I have crawled way out on a limb and I can't get back Read more →

He is funny. Yes, very funny. He did impressions of people that I know. People that think they are good at impressions. This made me laugh. Something very likable and sweet about him. Friend chemistry and crazy assed hair. Read more →

In the back of a cab, we kissed. It was nice. Read more →

I just want you to know that happiness is yours. It's yours and it's coming. Soon. Through this job, or this experience. Well, not absolutely exactly…Through the passage of time. Through integration in the world. Through your own spirit and endeavors. Happiness is an inside thing, not an outside one. It's not about circumstance, it's about orientation. I know that's… Read more →

This bachelor is funny, and although I will go to the gym with him, he will have no privledges. Read more →

The white Stripes are pure sex. How can two make such a holy holy sound? This is the best show I have been to, maybe ever….. I was absolutely creaming in my jeans and left feeling completely sated. This is also the 4th date with bachelor #6. He held my hand and it was sweet. We had much fun and… Read more →

Saturday & Sunday Resort in full effect Finally we are in utter heaven, lying in mineral springs, swimming in saltwater pools getting massages. We have returned to the womb. Harrison's eyes have changed: his face looks relaxed. My voice has dropped way down low. Our skin is feeling sooooo good. Luckily we made ideal traveling companions, and did not get… Read more →

Saturday morning I wake up after Harrison and find him reading out by the pool. We are served miso and rice and delicious sea weed, I am starting to like George after all. His friend joins us for breakfast and regales us with stories of real estate deals gone bad. The music piped in to the pool sounds like a… Read more →