The 8:30 am voice from outside the bedroom door said rather than asked “Do you want me to eat breakfast alone”. He held me and whispered “This isn't really a vacation for you is it” And I know he understands. Now, I want to rearrange my belongings, light candles, burn incense, put on the music, take baths, and generally lie… Read more →

this morning I took my vitamins with champagne. blue toenails I am on the way to the airport Read more →

Last night, 2 plates of tuna tartar and sleep (that is after I could breathe again) Read more →

90 gigs of material Almost all the work Since I arrived Up, in a poof of smoke Cross your fingers for me please Read more →

the smell of dust on a hot light bulb, warm photocopier toner, freshly welded aluminium and the salty taste of a battery. The essences of various woods, the aura of lotus and the moss of willow trees and his essence Read more →

In line forever Under florescent lights At Kmart I noticed over and over again How handsome he was Read more →

Part 3 of a 3 point turn that I am doing on a tiny cobblestone street at night in downtown Charleston. I see the 240ZX in my rearview mirror and come close to hitting it, apparently I am not the only one or perhaps I am just the only one that didn't hit it. With it's side all bashed in,… Read more →

He picked me up in his spaceship with kisses oh so sweet I had a house in the Hollywood Hills, all glass With trees all around, a bird of paradise in the front blooming Two cats were purring Warm water and cold rain His cheeks taste good soon Read more →

I bought a radio controlled clock today. It refuses to be controlled, it just ignores the signals. Tonight I took it for a drive, hoping it would loosen up, relax and have some sort of communication. It was stubborn and paid no attention, it just announced arbitrary times. I tried to explain that time was a coordinate that very seldom… Read more →

from november 22, 2002 Read more →

I am more relieved that happy. I have had a headache for 3 days. Last night after working for 14 hours I wanted to go into an isolation tank. I brought a bag of chips to bed because I didn't have dinner and then I woke up in the night with one hand in the bag, my mouth full of… Read more →

Tonight we screened dailies late because the director drove his car into a ditch. The sheriff said, “I hope you shoot better then you drive”. Read more →

Dioxin is bad, coochies are good. I don't understand why anyone would put bad dioxin in a perfectly good coochie, and this is why I always buy organic 100% cotton tampons. Today, in fact, I picked some up at the health food store. Funny thing is that the tiny box of tampons is about the same size as my cell… Read more →

I watched myself take a bite out of each donut. After the first 2 or 3 bites I really didn't want to eat any more, I just, as usual, wanted to taste them all. So, I took a bite out of all 12 and then threw the box away. So removed, I thought, how fascinating it was, this is how… Read more →

Luckily I am ready Read more →

In a big circular banquet Veuve Clicquot Mussels Escargot Lobster salad Crab cocktail 2 dozen oysters, 1 dozen beau soliel, 1 dozen blue point hands touching across the table we like the same things… some parts inter-changeable our alchemy with it's wild potentials of summation and cancellation…. More then I ever imagined I watch him show his ID and walk… Read more →

Tell me more and then some Daddy you know what I wanna hear I want some more and then some of that I love you only dear I want some more and then some Oh how you feel And then when you done told me About a million times How much you love me And you're through Start right back… Read more →