I don't think I told you, but the other night I went to Karoake and all of my friends left. I was just getting started, so I stayed on alone. I was the only Caucasian in the place, and probably the youngest…… I sang a bunch of songs with out the benefit of a posse A Regular there, Ed, sent… Read more →

My mom and dad bought a waffle iron and it was a big deal. I was in pre-school. I tasted my first waffle and it was the most amazing thing I had ever tasted. I knew no one would ever believe me or even be able to comprehend such deliciousness. I asked my mom if I could bring some to… Read more →

My hair is short because I shaved my head I kept it I dunno, I just shaved it then I got into shaving my arms for a while they looked so artificial, so cool, like plastic oh this, (pointing to his arm) I was studying architecture It wasn’t a happy time, not a happy time I would stay up late… Read more →

The other thing that I think should be left out of first dates, besides incessantly using the word fuck as a verb, is talk of and show of excessive knowledge about serial killers. Suffice to say that when he spoke of the weird flash in Ted Bundy's eyes I thought I saw that flash in his. Read more →

It has gotten this bad, my problem….. We sit down to eat at Vida, we look at the menus, I barely know him, but I say “I want sushi” to my delight he agrees even though it involves going all the way to the valley. It feels like that moment when you find someone that is both handsome and will… Read more →

I have a very ugly black chair, but it gives good massage. Sometimes when people are over we take turns sitting in it, one person lies on the bed and another in the chair. Then we switch. When I first got it my friend Scott said “now you REALLY don't need a boyfriend”. I want to add headphones, so I… Read more →

I say the word fuck a lot I admit it. Not usually on a first date, well I don't think that I do. One thing I know I do not do is use the word fucking a lot as a verb on the first date like Bachelor #12 did. I might say “It was FUCKING amazing” and he would say… Read more →

Seek out that particular mental attitude which makes you feel most deeply and vitally alive, along with which comes the inner voice which says, “This is the real me,” and when you have found that attitude, follow it. -William James Read more →

I am pretty sure it was Travis Bickel that brought me home this evening. Well, the Russian Travis Bickel. He seemed very upset about the sleazy place that I had been. He also had never read and never heard of Ayn Rand. Read more →

“The moment you commit and quit holding back, all sorts of unforeseen incidents, meetings and material assistance will rise up to help you. The simple act of commitment is a powerful magnet for help!” – Napoleon Hill Read more →

I am going to eat so much sushi that I can not move. Read more →

I was at a carnival unlike any I have actually been to. So much was going on, it was romantic and seedy. There was something wrong with me, I was sick. I was weak, delirious really and my head hurt. A women helped me, she found a place for me to lie down and got help. The bloodlet-ter came, he… Read more →

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Tonight I went to the LA premiere of One Hour Photo http://www.apple.com/trailers/fox_searchlight/one_hour_photo/ see it and tell me what you think Read more →

“…but I'm always being invaded by others' souls so I can't see my own soul very well” -Shuntaro Tanikawa One night you fall asleep with an ungiven kiss on your lips, you fall asleep in your kiss. It is like sending yourself on an all night errand to interview echos about where they think they're coming from. Where did it… Read more →

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Blamm, blamm, blamm Slow motion, we all hit the ground Lights off Boys peering out the window to the street Girls finding the phone Calling Hearts beating 5 minutes later police arrive we go outside across the street someone is dead I drive home all shaky, helicoptor above Read more →

I miss telegrams from my boyfriend in Brazil I miss air-mail letters, that took weeks to come, on super-fine paper with traces of DNA I miss vinyl spinning all night long A Love Supreme And its slinking reflection of a candle being burnt all the way down. I miss the warm ring of an analogue telephone and the sound of… Read more →

When confronted with grief All I want to do Is eat sushi And sleep Read more →